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.“You are quite right,” she said meekly.“I had forgotten she had been away so very long.If she had no interest before, then it must have been acquired entirely by reading.Perhaps she was homesick for the wide skies, the salt wind, and the sound of the sea?”There was a flash of victory in Bedelia’s eyes, a knowledge of her own power.Grandmama felt it as keenly as if it had been a charge of electricity between them such as one is pricked by at times if one touches certain metals when the air is very dry.She had read that predatory animals scented blood in the same way, and it gave her a shiver of fear and intense knowledge of vulnerability, which made life suddenly both sweet and fragile.Was that what Agnes had known all her life? Or was she being fanciful? What about Maude? Was she crushed, too? Was that really why she had left England, and everything familiar that she unquestionably loved, and gone to all kinds of ancient, barbaric, and splendid other lands, where she neither knew anyone nor was known? A desperate escape?Perhaps there was very much more here, beneath the surface, than she had dreamed, even when she had stood in the bedroom beside Maude’s dead body this morning?Bedelia was smiling.“Perhaps she was,” she agreed aloud.“But she could have chosen to live by the sea if she had wished to.Poor Maude had very little sense of how to make decisions, even the right ones.It is most unfortunate.”“We were hoping to go out far more, later, when she returned…” Agnes glanced at Bedelia.“In the New Year…or…or whenever we were certain…,” she trailed off, knowing that somehow she had put her foot in it.Grandmama stared at her, willing her to explain.Bedelia sighed impatiently.“Agnes, dear, you really do let your tongue run away with you!” She turned to Grandmama in exasperation.“You had better know the truth, Mrs.Ellison, or you will feel that we are a cruel family.And it is not so at all.Maude is our middle sister, and she was always unruly, the one who had to draw attention to herself by being different.It happens in families at times.The eldest have attention because they are first, the youngest because they are the babies, the middle ones feel left out, and they show off, to use a common term.”“Maude was not a show-off,” Arthur corrected her.“She was an enthusiast.Whatever she did, it was with a whole heart.There was nothing affected or contrived in her.”Bedelia did not look away from Grandmama.“My husband is a man of extraordinarily generous spirit.It is his work for the less fortunate for which Her Majesty is offering him a peerage.I am immensely proud of him, because it is for the noblest of reasons, nothing tawdry like finance, or political support.” She smiled patiently.“But occasionally his judgment is rather more kind than accurate.It was apparent as soon as she arrived that Maude had traveled in places where manners and customs are quite different from ours.I’m afraid that even her language was not such that we could subject our other guests to her…her more colorful behavior.We knew that Joshua, being on the stage, might be more tolerant of eccentricity.Of course we could not know that you also would be staying with him, and if Maude has shocked you or made you uncomfortable, then we are guilty of having caused that, and on behalf of all of us, I apologize.Our inconsideration in that regard is what has been disturbing Agnes.”Agnes smiled, but there were tears in her eyes.“I see.” Grandmama tried to imagine Maude as an embarrassment so severe as to be intolerable.She did not know Lord Woollard.Perhaps he was insufferably pompous.There certainly were people so consumed by their own emotional inadequacy and imagined virtue as to take offense at the slightest thing.And the Maude she had met would find a certain delight in puncturing the absurd, the self-important, and above all the false.It would be a scene to be avoided.If Arthur Harcourt had done as much for others as Bedelia said, then he was deserving of recognition, and more importantly the added power to do more good that such an accolade would offer him.“I’m sure you do,” Bedelia said gently.“All families seem to have their difficult members,” Zachary added ruefully.Grandmama had an unpleasant feeling that in her family it was she herself.Although Caroline was now giving her some competition, marrying an actor so much younger than herself! And there was Charlotte, of course, and her policeman!A short while later the ladies retired to the withdrawing room and she learned little more of interest.She considered inquiring after people’s health, but could think of no way of approaching the subject without being catastrophically obvious.She was extremely tired.It had been one of the longest days of her life, beginning with tragedy and horror, and ending with mystery, and the growing certainty in her mind that someone in this house had altered Maude’s medicine.Exactly how it had been achieved, and with what, she had yet to ascertain.Even more important to her was why.Maude had been successfully sent to stay with Joshua.Lord Woollard had been and gone.What was the element so precious, or so terrible, that it was worth murder?She excused herself, thanked them again for their hospitality, and went up to her room.Please heaven it would snow tonight, or in some other way make it impossible for her to leave.There was so much she had to learn.This detection matter was more difficult than she had supposed, and against her will she was being drawn into other people’s lives.She cared about Maude, there was no use denying that anymore.She disliked Bedelia and had felt the strength of her power.She was sorry for Agnes without knowing why.Arthur intrigued her.In spite of all that was said about him, his success and his goodness to others, she felt an unnamed emotion that disturbed her.It did not fit in.Randolph and Clara were still too undefined, except that Clara had great social ambitions! Could that possibly be enough to inspire murder?It was all swirling around in her head as she put on the housekeeper’s nightgown and climbed into the bed, intending to weigh it all more carefully, and instead fell asleep almost immediately.The following morning she slept in, and was embarrassed to waken with the chambermaid standing at the foot of the bed with tea on a tray, and an inquiry as to what she would care for, for breakfast.Would two lightly boiled eggs and some toast be possible?Indeed it would, with the greatest pleasure
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